He had to let her go, far, far away from him, across the
seven seas, into a land unknown to him, into a world where he had no entry.
She, who was the love of his life, his only hope, his only friend, the only
woman who gave meaning to his sustenance. She was indispensable for him, as he
was for her. Such was the compatibility that existed between the two. Such a
harmony which was soon to come to an end, they never knew...
The rhythm was shattered by the entry of a stout and
handsome young man, a supposed soldier, a traveler as well, into Aparna’s
life; he who stole her heart away. She fell madly in love, (for who would not?)
with this gentle, loving man of twenty eight. They soon went to a nearby temple
and got united in holy matrimony.
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That was the last that Lalit saw of her, staring at him with
her enormous, pretty eyes,waving him goodbye, leaving him with a loneliness
that was emphatically destructive.
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Years passed by… every new day brought him with a new hope
that he would hear from her, that she still would say that she loved him, still
cared for him. Oh! Why did he let her go? Why couldn’t he stop that man from
taking his sole joy away from him? He could sense that Aparna was sure to try
to be in touch. But alas!there was no news, no calls, no letters. Was this the
kind of reciprocation that was expected from his unconditional love for her?
For how long could he hold on to his patience? He longed to see her, to
hear, at least for once, her soft, sweet voice, to see the satiated smile on
her lips, before he could breathe his last.
2nd of January, 2013, the fiftieth year of
his birth, a parcel arrives at Lalit's beggard door. Quite confused, his gaze
falls at the address, yes, it was correct, and the name was his; and the
sender’s name... some Sophie from Milton, Romania. Sophie? He couldn't
recollect that name. Curiously enough, while unraveling the filthy ribbons
attached to the tiny box, he discovered a small note that was stuck to a
corner. Breathlessly unfolding it, read through the lines…
“Aparna's wish was that this box must reach you at any
cost, for you were the one whom she was desperate to see before her last
breath. She escaped from her devastated village during the communal rife and
took refuge here. Her husband was killed in the political combat. She was badly
injured when she had arrived. She was physically, as well as mentally tortured
in her village and outcast by the society of her husband. She somehow managed
to escape with the help of a kind and common friend, who brought her at my
doorstep, to be kept and treated under my custody. She was four months pregnant
at the time. But her injuries were too deep, which she could endure not more
than a week…”
His soul lost, could read no further, grasping for breath,
he rummaged through the contents. Much to his dismay, he found all those
undelivered letters for him, which were never cared to be posted. With his dry,
trembling fingers, he unfolded the freckled, yellow pages, which read the story
of her regret and shame of her marriage to a brutal terrorist, her unsuccessful
attempts to escape the torture of his inhuman fury and the physical abuses of
her in-laws.How incessantly she thought of Lalit and missed him
desperately at each and every moment of her suffering, that she was sorry to
have left him alone to fall for a gentle stranger who turned out to be a brute.
She begged and begged for forgiveness...
With eyes sore, and heart crumbling to dust, he found the
pictures of her childhood, when she was a little kid, holding on to his
fingers, learning how to take the first step, the pictures depicting the tale
of their togetherness, of their love...he also found, among the contents,
compressed into a small ball, the very first sweater that he had knitted
for her on the first winter of her life.
Lalit's wait was over. He was but a waking corpse. Pressing
the memories to his breast, uttered a cry of anguish at his immense loss, the
cry of his soul with a throat that spilled blood over her name ...
"Aparna, Aparna…"
"Aparna, Aparna…"
“My daughter, oh, my daughter…”
Once again, his world turned silent, ever since the silence
after the demise of his beloved wife, some five and thirty years ago while
giving birth…the silence, now complete.
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